firefly_1311

I feel so run down & tired at the moment I don't know why. Had a bad day yesterday major binge. :( hope I got it all out when I purged I really don't want those KJs Im just exhausted I wish somedays I could stop but I hate that Im so gross. Im down 2kgs (about 1 pound) this week which Im happy about but whether I'll ever actually ill be thin I dont know. Going to force myself to go to the gym even though Im tired. really need to tone up. Ana & I have such a love hate relationship its wierd. Gotta stay strong though.

I gave justin my whole heart how could he just fuck me over like this.  He cheated on me when I clearly am such a better GF than Jess so why??? I don't get smart with him like those other skanks, Im not a drug addict & don't have the dramas of other guys kids in his life. I just dont get it I really can't wait to give him the letter telling him how much he hurt me. I don't care what he says I don't need him to give me closure giving him the letter will be enough. Why can't I just find a guy who won't break my sweet heart & gentle spirit. God men are such bastards sometimes....  Just wait though when he sees me next I will be in control not him. Ill be thin again & he'll wish he never hurt me. I promise myself I will be in control for me though NOT him nothing I ever do will be for him again he's just hurt me one to many times.

Feeling really good at the moment. Today has been my lowest day to date only 84kj really looking forward to joining up with pro ana. Can't wait for some support & to give some advice as well. Once i get some support really hoping to be able to do a 48hr water fast but so far everythign has been on track, with an average daily deficit of 4000kj really hope to reach GW2 by new years
Height: 164cm (5'5)
CW: 56 kg (123)
HW: 58kg (128)
GW1: 50kg (110)
GW2: 45 kg (99)
GW3: 42kg (90)

PS: Its good to see the weight written down in pounds it reminds me how much I have to lose.

 Hey guys,Never been part of a community before & just looking for some support. I guess i used to be bulimic in high school but ever since university ive put on like 8kgs i guess thats like 16pounds ohh it sounds even worse when i say it like that. My BF cheated on me & guess I find this as a way to put some control back in my life. Im hoping to go on a liquid fast keeping below 2000Kjs a day is this ok or should i aim lower am i in the right post? or should i be someone else. I just wanna fit in and be skinny ..... Sad & depressed need help girls please Its the only way i ever feel in control. Cutting works ok but i have only ever got real sastisfaction in losing weight. Please help.